The idea unfolds

January 4, 2009 Monday

Upon reflection about my New Year's Eve weekend at my friend Brenda's home in Big Canoe, I realized that I wanted to approach this year with a purpose. We had discussed topics such as being more open, more spiritual, connecting with others and God. So, how do I do that? Any of it, all of it?

Today it hit me as I was driving to work (always a place for monumental discovery, there and in the shower). Explore all things spiritual for a year. But without agenda - let it come as it may. That sounds good doesn't it?

Then I thought - how do I do that? Well maybe I sign up for classes, read books that inspire me, go to a convent, experience different kinds of worship ....it can be endless. And more importantly there is no right or wrong. It's whatever I want the journey to be. Exciting! Then I thought, blog about it. Record my journey, feelings, thoughts - maybe there is insight to be gained. I'm excited. Like writing an English paper that won't be graded - that sounds reasonable to me.

So, here I am. Day 1. :) I feel better just having come up with a plan. A plan, that's hard for me as I tend to get paralyzed (often). Trying to do it JUST RIGHT or the way I think someone else would want me to DO IT. I'm going to shed those thoughts for this exercise. It's my way, my thoughts, uncensored and without judgement (I'm my own worst judge and critic by far).

My friend Mark is on his way to Birmingham to spend a couple of nights with me. He is going to introduce me to a some of his friends. That will be good. I need to stretch and meet new people, maybe allow myself to make a friend or two. Mark is a wonderful and we will have fun chatting about our hopes and dreams for the upcoming year. I'm probably going to share my idea with him. Not for input or judgement but rather to open up my soul and share. Lovely idea!